Showing posts with label moving. Show all posts
Showing posts with label moving. Show all posts

Thursday, March 24, 2016

new direction

What do I have to write about? What do I have to share. (conscious punctuation). I feel like nothing, but there’s stuff inside of me that wants to get out so here we are. A blog about nothing, a blog about everything. I am a 30 year old woman. I am married to a man and have two kids. I live in the northeast u.s.a. I recently moved to my hometown from the largest metropolitan area in the state. Adjusting is still happening and I am surprised by it in spite of myself. I am learning that things can happen swiftly, quickly, but that we can play catch up with it for some time. For instance, having a new baby. It’s chaotic. It shakes up your entire household, all the beings in it. Routines, relationships, standings. The baby arrives quickly, but the adjustment period lasts. You think it is a bump in the road before things return to normal, but in fact a new normal now exists that you need to adjust to.

Back to moving. It happened swiftly. There was an interview and job offer within days of one another. Less than three weeks later we were moving into our new rental, by virtue of a very helpful person. In those three weeks, one of my kids broke their arm. He then started kindergarten a week later. Less than a year earlier, he became a big brother. Changes happening swiftly, processing after the fact. Adjustment.

It’s been nearly seven months now, since we moved. The cast was long ago taken off. A school routine has been established, not without many bumps. A work routine. These routines are the scaffolding of our lives. Everything else works around it. We grasp at the routines and try to create our new normal around them.

Monday, April 23, 2012

april showers

Woke up to rain, and real rain, not just an overcast but still somehow bright day like yesterday which only manages to give me a headache. Today it's pouring, my son has already gotten me out to play in the puddles and back inside again. Coffee, breakfast, more coffee, still sleepy. Got lots of sleep but I always want more.

Rearranged living room, more open, better flow. Need to give away loveseat, though, to feel the full effect. Feels nice. Couch now faces the windows, which feels calming. It's quiet inside except for the pattering of rain and my son playing around with his cars, crayons, whatever. It feels cozy, peaceful, I should do some cleaning, bread is baking in the bread machine.

And I'm thinking about the things I really should do- job applications, planning for the future, a possible move 234 miles east, to the literal edge of America- it makes me feel a little stressed. But at least beginning one thing will make me feel less stressed. How do I know that we're making the right choice? I don't want to get stuck, although we are already sort of stuck here. We know it's time for a change. It seems like a good one. I feel drawn there. I think I would feel more inspired. Want to write more, photograph more, document more. Temporary. I have to keep telling myself that it will be a temporary shift. I think I'm getting too far ahead of myself.

Must do some stretches today. And some laundry. And some book-reading. Perhaps some astrology studies. We'll see.